December 2011
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Today is a very hard day for me.
I don’t want to start a new year. I don’t want to be in any year which they are not. I don’t want this to become ‘last year’. It feels so fucking obscene for time to keep going and dates changing when it is so clear to me that the world has ended. In my reality, this doesn’t exist anymore.
I wish new years would just fuck right off. I’m sick of being...
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I am scared of my first New Years without Stef.
I don’t want to start any years that don’t have her in them.
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Who wants a stick n poke?
I wanna stick needles in ya skin. Just a little bit.
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“TW: Rape, rape culture
Eight percent of college men have either attempted or...”
– Margo Maine, Ph.D. (Body Wars)
There was a time that, as a person of the male persuasion, seeing this quote made me really mad. It made me mad that women would assume that I was a rapist; it made me mad that rape was becoming ‘my problem’; it made me mad because, frankly, I didn’t think it was...
Because a White Guy Said It →
Because a White Guy Said It
stfusexists:
uhuh-she-said:
Listen,
It does not matter what you say. As a woman, as a woman of color, as a woman of size, as a woman with large breasts or no breasts and a lifetime of experience with bucket loads of passion. It does not fucking matter.*
Because unless there is a white guy backing you up, you are an angry bitch. Uppity, spirited, “that girl”,...
Reblog if 2011 was a rough year for you too.
pompadoursandpincurls:
lapocketrocket:
freckledstyle:
yes.
2011 has been the most consistently unhappy I’ve ever felt.
^^^ Truth.
You’ve got no fucking idea.
“I need to be clear that it’s not up to all of us to dismantle the system. Not...”
– Derrick Jensen (via omchomsky)
yes i like dis. learning about these huge problematic structures in class gets so big and theoretical, its important to remember that there are pieces of the system that can be addressed by different people, simultaneously.
(via beccaglass)
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Also, grief. Always.
TW: grief, death, suicide
So I’m trying really hard to keep my grief stuff out of my Tek-appreciation post but just making that post was such a painful process. Finding photos to show you had to include looking at photos of Stef and Carly and Sophie, and of looking at photos of the day that Stef died. The day that Stef died Tek and I were on a magical date celebrating our...
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definatalie's bits: [Trigger warning] On Being a... →
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fox-power:
As a sex- and body-positive person, I know that there is nothing wrong with having consensual sex with whoever you want, and that human bodies are beautiful. As a survivor of rape, anything even vaguely connected to sex causes guilt and fear, and that my…
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I am trying to make a video to put on youtube for the first time ever. I’ve been wanting to do this for about 2 years now but I just feel so embarrassed at myself. Ugh.
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Everything is terrible.
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shayrhymeswithgay asked: Bodies are a tough place to be sometimes. And sometimes, people (medical professionals and otherwise) who don't experience their bodies they way you do yours, can't understand the complicated and sometimes contradicting relationship you have with it. I don't understand your relationship to your body. But I still love you, even if your feet are far away.
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family member: so what are your plans
me: sleep and eat
family member: i meant for tomorr-
me: sleep and eat
family member: and for the futu-
me: sleep
family member: when you grow u-
me: eat
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Sometimes this song makes me cry on the bus.
Our toes under blankets look like the tops of mountains that I haven’t seen yet. Burning the second coal, Listening, a typewriter drum roll comes through the bedroom wall. Ignoring, pretending not to notice the heartbeat or the contact that practically screams: “come closer to me”. I didn’t ask for this body.
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Thinking about Dr Seuss stick and pokes.
“Ableism must be included in our analysis of oppression and in our conversations...”
– Mia Mingus, Moving Toward the Ugly: A Politic Beyond Desirability (via jadedfucker)
YES.
(via pompadoursandpincurls)
I have been thinking about this a lot today.
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get busy living or get busy dying: How to Still... →
herearemyhands:
iragray:
Are you afraid that your dysphoria will render you incapable of having enjoyable sex? Do you avoid having sex (assuming you want to to begin with) because you’re not sure how you’ll react? These are perfectly valid concerns, and no one should tell you…
“The only position that leaves me with no cognitive dissonance is atheism. It is...”
– Christopher Hitchens (via thecountryfucker)
I want nothing more. (via tradingjack)
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I really really should not have started talking...
Or maybe ever. I just spent an hour crying to my counsellor about my weight and my body and my health and how my GP sent me to a psychiatrist the other day and I realised when I got there that he is an eating disorder specialist, which means she probably still thinks that I have an eating disorder after all this time. I just don’t feel capable of defending my body’s right to exist...
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Talking about body-shaming being problematic and...
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why do people deny thin privilege? →
femmesandfamily:
stiltsforshorttempers:
I probably can’t respond to this adequately right now because I’m far too upset, but I feel like I’ve gotta try and hope I don’t get hated for it. I don’t know what specific experiences the person writing this is talking about when they say ‘denying thin privilege’, and maybe what this person means when they say ‘thin’ does not include my body and my...
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Today was the day I was supposed to graduate.
But instead I drank goon for breakfast (and lunch and dinner) and ate a hash cookie and had a lounge room dance party and hung out in a vacant lot.
I am covered in bruises and scratches from all my adventuring over the last week, I feel like a little kid again. Like a little kid who has been trying to learn to skateboard. My banged up shins make me feel pretty Tuff.
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I am skin covering anxiety.